Title: Chase in Shadow
Author: Amy Lane
Publisher: Dreamspinner Press
Publication Date: Feb 23rd 2012
Genre: M/M, Contemporary, Romance, Adult 18+
Length: 320 pages
Provided by: Net Galley
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Chase Summers: Golden boy. Beautiful girlfriend, good friends, and a promising future.
Nobody knows the real Chase.
Chase Summers has a razor blade to his wrist and the smell of his lover’s goodbye clinging to his skin. He has a door in his heart so frightening he’d rather die than open it, and the lies he’s used to block it shut are thinning with every forbidden touch. Chase has spent his entire life unraveling, and his decision to set his sexuality free in secret has only torn his mind apart faster.
Chase has one chance for true love and salvation. He may have met Tommy Halloran in the world of gay-for-pay—where the number of lovers doesn’t matter as long as the come-shot’s good—but if he wants the healing that Tommy’s love has to offer, he’ll need the courage to leave the shadows for the sunlight. That may be too much to ask from a man who’s spent his entire life hiding his true self. Chase knows all too well that the only things thriving in a heart’s darkness are the bitter personal demons that love to watch us bleed.
Chase in Shadow is a journey through the life of Chase, a man that spends so much of his life trying to be what others need that he pushes who he truly is further and further down until the fateful night that starts the book. Chase is not your ordinary romance hero. He is the product of a frighteningly abusive father and a mother that gave up when he was barely more than a baby.
To combat what he hides in a tiny room within him, he tries to be the perfect boyfriend to a woman he only feels friendship for, the perfect friend for friends that don’t know the true him. When presented with a suggestion for how to make more money, so he can take better care of Mercy, the girlfriend, he nervously enters the life of Gay-For-Pay porn, where he finds himself. Finds the love of his life. But also nearly loses himself in all the lies and pain from hiding both himself and where the money is really coming from.
After his boyfriend ends up in the hospital, he blames himself – of course – he breaks it off with him and tries to regain his ‘normal’ life. But what’s normal when you whole has been a lie?
You remember that door, that place within, and that fateful night? What happens with the door opens and the festering truth and fear finally flood out . . .
Chase in Shadow is a wonderful, heart wrenching read that will make you laugh, cry, want to hug the characters, and want to hunt down the father (to murder him, I promise). The writing is powerful, the plot rich and believable, and the characters . . . just WOW! I hope there is a sequel (and that Dax is the hero and gets his HEA). What’s not to love when childhood friends and porn stars team up to rind to your rescue and help you find your own HEA with the badass boy of your dreams?
I am creative, distracted, and terribly weird. I love my children to distraction, and I love my hobbies even when they piss me off. I come from a double line of extremely creative, intelligent people who hated authority so much they dodged higher education, and I married a wonderful man who is quiet, conservative, devestatingly funny, and perfect. Our children are constant reminders that God and Goddess have a profound sense of humor, and that all of the things you dislike most about yourself but pretend don’t exist really do come back on the karmic wheel to kick your ass when you least expect it. My family keeps me young and humble and I try every day to make them proud. I’ve written seven books, VULNERABLE, WOUNDED, BOUND, & RAMPANT which are all part of the Little Goddess series, BITTERMOON I and II, and Keeping Promise Rock, found at Dreamspinner Press. I write to placate the voices in my head, profanity is the element I swim in, and knitting socks at stoplights has become my twitch.